Dangers of Break

Written Monday------ Today is a bad day. Guess what I have done today? Very little. Sure I practiced singing, and worked on a song I'm writing, I worked out and I went on a walk with my grandma. But that stuff only took about 2 hours total.

I have now been awake for 7.5 hours.

What did I do during those other 5 hours.... well the worst part is I HAVE NO IDEA.
This is a big problem,
Murphy's law for clutter- Clutter will expand to fill the space/time it is given. ---- end Monday segment

I couldn't let my stupidity be my downfall again, so I dove into myself and made some changes. A big part of the problem is not having any real commitments(immediate commitments). Not having commitments gets me in the mindset of " I'll just do it later"... HORRIBLE! AWFUL NO! AH! I  noticed this happening and  my soul punched me in the face...

This is also my biggest fear after I graduate college. I tend to look at letting other people down as a bigger disservice than letting myself down.  When I got to college I  noticed that I would have something to do and feel really great about starting it. I would start, get five minutes in, and then someone would call me and ask to hang out, and If I told them I couldn't I would usually  be ridiculed in some way, because I could "always do it later." The funny thing is that "later" never came.

This winter break is different. I have already refused 2 proposals to hang out because I wanted to read, or needed to work on memorizing; and while i felt slightly guilty at first, I felt infinitely less guilty than had I  hung out and not gotten my work done. In some ways I felt like a true bad ass, a real man (I just read a whole book!! YES!) or (HAHA I have Conquered the HEMIOLA!) I even noticed my chest hair starting to come in!

So there you have it folks, I'm learning the importance of the Scientific Method. Observing things (within myself) and finally changing the things I don't like. Now that I know that i can be whoever I want, I can make whatever changes I want. Awesome.

In the next few posts, I'll  be outlining what I have learned in 2010, what went well and what didn't and My goals for 2011 and how I'll achieve them.

Until then, have a Happy Christmas, a Crazy Kwanza, Bodacious Boxing day... etc. with all the holidays..

Josh