Adventures with Mema

For the second time in my life, this morning, I woke up to my Mema ([mima] grandma) screaming bloody murder. Who was she screaming at you ask? ME. Well she was screaming for me but not at me. You see, my grandma was asleep, stuck in a dream within a dream within a dream (one of my biggest fears) and screaming for me to wake her up.

This might seem odd to some of you, but it happens to me all the time, where I think I'm awake only to find I can't open my eyes, I'll even walk out of my room, put on clothes in these dreams. The strange thing is that in these dreams I am always very drowsy and unable to open my eyes, then I realize I'm asleep  and open my "real" eyes (the eyes on my physical body) get up, stumble around a bit... pinch myself. You know, standard check stuff. Then I'll realize that I'm actually still asleep when I keep falling over(guess those weren't my physical eyes), I'll wake myself again, to find myself still in my bed, thank the Lord I am awake..... the cycle repeats itself, then again, and i start to think I'll never wake up.. I usually wake up by the 5th time.... (note: when i pinch myself to check if I'm really awake... I DO feel it: proof that I can never really know.)

Anyway, my grandmothers reaction to these dreams isn't as passive as mine... she is screaming "AHHH WAKE ME UP!" I shake her violently,harder than I think her osteoporosis ridden bones can handle, and she still doesn't wake; not until I PUNCH HER IN THE FACE......yeah.......

I think it's called sleep paralysis, and I'm going to look into it. I wonder if this happens to other people?

Anyway I brought it up, because it's always been my fear that I would live my whole life only to wake up still in my freshman year dorm room (story as to why to come later). Can I ever really be sure that I(punched my grandma) am ACTUALLY living my daily life in the waking world? Does it even matter(that i punched my grandma)? If I'm having fun does it matter if it's real? What is experience, and is waking experience significantly different from dream experience?

I have no idea.(why I am a)

Grandma Puncher,

Josh

Just kidding about punching her in the face.. No granny's were harmed :)